“There is only the forest and there is only surrender.”

 Oh yeah I'm an ugly m e s s

Not in the face, but in the head

I'm thinking that was best not said

But I say it anyway, then I say it again

Golden Haze

wild heart surrender to me
what does it take to be like you?
golden haze hold out for days

wild heart surrender to me
what does it take to be like you?
golden haze hold out for days
haven't seen you haven't seen anyone

beautiful one
i wanna know what you are
beautiful one
i wanna know what you are

Deep inside where nothings fine

I've lost my mind

You're not invited, so step aside

I've lost my

Get Out The Way

orange takano ichigo

something happened in my imagination // the situations becoming dire // my treehouse is on fire // and for some reason i smell gas on my hands // this is not what i had planned, THIS IS NOT WHAT I HAD PLANNED.

Winter

I know if I'll make it through this winter without you by my side
I waited for you so long while I traveled far and wide
Convinced myself there's no one better, so how could I deny
Your love, it's like a thorn into my side

My friends they understand me better but don't whisper goodnight
I want a lover and a sister, but we know that's not right
You used to listen to my music, I always wondered why
I wish I could pretend you make me try

I want the days to come, I want these sleepless nights to end
I lie here thinking how I lost you to all your stupid friends
You made me feel so foolish for the twenty-second time
Your love might be the last time that I try

Don't know if I'll make it through this winter without you on my own
I waited here for you forever, I can't believe you'd go
I may not have the answers, but I'd rather never know
Your love was such a heavy, heavy blow

Goodnight my love, you seemed so nice 'til I knew you better
Now I can tell you're always thinking twice about what might be better
On the outside, there's no conscience, you're a victim of your cautiousness
You don't try, you just lie there hoping that someone will come to make it right

On the other side

I'm tired of everyone I know
Of everyone I see on the street and on TV
On the other side, on the other side
Nobody's waiting for me on the other side

I hate them all, I hate them all
I hate myself for hating them
So I'll drink some more, I'll love them all, I'll drink even more
I'll hate them even more than I did before

On the other side, on the other side
Nobody's waiting for me on the other side

I remember when you came
You told me how to sing
Now it seems so far away
You told me how to sing

I'm tired of being so judgmental of everyone
And when the ghosts sleep, I will train my eyes to see
And my mind is as wide as the bird's on a tree

On the other side, on the other side
I know what's waiting for me on the other side
On the other side, on the other side
I know you're waiting for me on the other side

Guns and ammunition make bullets out of you / You speak dynamic fiction and I see right through that too / When I think about you my whole world falls through

“This place sucks, but I just worry that one day we’re gonna look back at high school and wish we’d done something different.”

Charlie Bartlett (2007) dir. Jon Poll

this is nøt rap

this is nøt hip høp

just anøther attempt tø make the vøices støp

rapping tø prøve nøthing, just writing tø say sømething

‘cause i wasn’t the ønly øne whø wasn’t rushing tø say nøthing

Me acuerdo cuando te "conocí", eras una extraña a la cual seguramente iba a ignorar, pero aún te tendría "ahí", entre los llamados "amigos" de esa red social. No sé quién había empezado la conversación, creo que fuiste tú, porque yo nunca soy de comenzar algo, sino de terminar. Hablamos hasta tarde, o es lo que me imagino ahora, y nos llevamos bien en un abrir y cerrar de ojos.

Pronto comenzamos a charlar sobre nuestros problemas, y me contaste tantas cosas que nunca me voy a olvidar. Te ayudé y viceversa, o a medias, lo que podíamos, pues eramos inexpertas y no teníamos noción de la vida en ese entonces, solo habíamos recorrido poco tiempo en este planeta y ya nos creíamos en la miseria, exageración se le llama, siendo que hay cosas peores, como lo que te ocurrió luego.

Después de uno o dos años me dijiste que te encontrabas tan mal, tan para la mierda que necesitabas auxilio urgentemente por lo que te estaba sucediendo. Con lo poco que pude traté de hacerte sentir mejor, hasta que te fuiste por un año aproximadamente sin dar rastros antes de tu partida, ni un aviso, ni un mensaje ni de tus familiares.

Ahora descubrí que volviste y estás mucho mejor, o es lo que parece, eso espero la verdad. Lo que me lastima un poco es que no te quieras volver a comunicar conmigo, pareciera como que te fuiste para desaparecer de mi vida bruscamente, aunque recuerdo que me prometiste que volverías, aunque por lo visto me equivoqué otra vez. Te esperé por tanto tiempo... o por lo menos a mi se me hizo una eternidad; ahora voy a tratar de que el pasado no me haga tanto eco en la cabeza para poder dormir, me alegra que estés bien pero, me pregunto... tantas cosas... no sé ni como escribirlas, no tengo idea.

No quiero sonar como alguien resentido porque X persona lo abandonó por sorpresa, porque prácticamente no fue así, no me quiero victimizar ni echar culpa, (valga la redundancia) solo quería descargarme porque necesitaba un escape, tampoco sé ni por qué me estoy excusando, en fin.