My heart is my armor,
She's the tear in my heart, she's a carver,
She's a butcher with a smile, cut me farther,
Than I've ever been.

Ode to sleep

I wake up fine and dandy but then by the time i find it handy,

To rip my heart apart and start planning my crash landing,

I go up, up, up, up, up to the ceiling,

Then I feel my soul start leaving, like an old man's hair receding,

I'm pleading please, oh please on my knees repeatedly asking,

Why it's got to be like this, is this living free,

I don't want to be the one, be the one who has the sun's blood on my hands,

I'll tell the moon, take this weapon forged in darkness,

Some see a pen, I see a harpoon.

I'll stay awake,

'Cause the dark's not taking prisoners tonight.

Why am I not scared in the morning,

I don't hear those voices calling,

I must have kicked them out, I must have kicked them out,

I swear I heard demons yelling,

Those crazy words they were spelling,

They told me I was gone, they told me I was g o n e.

But I'll tell them,

Why won't you let me go?

Do I threaten all your plans?

I'm insignificant.

Please tell them you have no plans for me.

I will set my soul on fire, what have I become?

I'll tell them.

On the eve of a day that's forgotten and fake,

And the trees they await and clouds anticipate,

The start of a day when we put on our face,

A mask that portrays that we don't need grace,

On the eve of a day that is bigger than us,

But we open our eyes 'cause we're told that we must,

And the trees wave their arms and the clouds try to plead,

Desperately yelling there's something we need,

I'm not free, I asked forgiveness three times,

Same amount that I denied, I three-time mvp'ed this crime,

I'm afraid to tell you who I adore, won't tell you who I'm singing towards,

Metaphorically I'm a whore, and that's denial number four.

I'll stay awake,

'Cause the dark's not taking prisoners tonight.

Why am I not scared in the morning,

I don't hear those voices calling,

I must have kicked them out, I must have kicked them out,

I swear I heard demons yelling,

Those crazy words they were spelling,

They told me I was gone, they told me I was g o n e.

But I'll tell them,

Why won't you let me go?

Do I threaten all your plans?

I'm insignificant,

Please tell them, you have no plans for me,

I will set my soul on fire, what have I become?

I'll tell them, you have no plans for me,

I will set my soul on fire,

What have I become?

I'll tell them,

I'll tell them,

I'll tell them,

I'll tell them,

Please tell them, you have no plans for me,

I will set my soul on fire, what have I become?

I'm sorry.

I am not as fine as I seem, pardon,
Me for yelling, I'm telling you green gardens,
Are not what's growing in my psyche, it's a different me,
A difficult beast feasting on burnt down trees,
Freeze frame please, let me paint a mental picture portrait,
Something you won't forget, it's all about my forehead,
And how it is a door that holds back contents,
That make Pandora's Box's contents look nonviolent,
Behind my eyelids are islands of violence,
My mind's shipwrecked, this is the only land my mind could,
Find, I did not know it was such a violent island,
Full of tidal waves, suicidal crazed lions,
They're trying to eat me, blood running down their chin,
And I know that I can fight or I can let the lion win,
I begin to assemble what weapons I can find,
'Cause sometimes to stay alive you got to kill your mind.

i kinda like it when i make you cry
'cause im twisted up
im twisted up
inside my mind

something happened in my imagination // the situations becoming dire // my treehouse is on fire // and for some reason i smell gas on my hands // this is not what i had planned, THIS IS NOT WHAT I HAD PLANNED.

this is nøt rap

this is nøt hip høp

just anøther attempt tø make the vøices støp

rapping tø prøve nøthing, just writing tø say sømething

‘cause i wasn’t the ønly øne whø wasn’t rushing tø say nøthing

I've been thinking too much, help me.

Shadows will scream that I'm alone. But I know we've made it this far, kid yeah, yeah, yeah.

Wish we cøuld turn back time, to the gøød øld days

when our mamas sang us to sleep, but nøw we’re stressed øut. 

Because a kitchen sink to you, is not a kitchen sink to me.

“Friend, please don’t take your life away from me
Would you let me know your plans tonight
'Cause I just won't let go 'til we both see the light
And I have nothing else left to say
But I will listen to you all day, yes I will” 

Holding on to you

I'm taking over my body, back in control, no more shotty,
I bet a lot of me was lost, Ts uncrossed and Is undotted,
I fought it a lot and it seems a lot like flesh is all I got,
Not anymore, flesh out the door, swat,
I must've forgot, you can't trust me,
I'm open a moment and close when you show it,
Before you know it, I'm lost at sea,
And now that I write and think about it,
And the story unfolds,
You should take my life, you should take my soul.

You are surrounding all my surroundings,
Sounding down the mountain range of my left-side brain,
You are surrounding all my surroundings,
Twisting the kaleidoscope behind both of my eyes.

And I'll be holding on to you 

Remember the moment you know exactly where you're going,
'Cause the next moment, before you know it,
Time is slowing and it's frozen still,
And the window sill looks really nice, right?
You think twice about your life, it probably happens at night,
Right? Fight it, take the pain, ignite it,
Tie a noose around your mind loose enough to breathe fine and tie it,
To a tree, tell it, "You belong to me,
This ain't a noose, this is a leash,
And I have news for you, you must obey me."

You are surrounding all my surroundings,
Sounding down the mountain range of my left-side brain,
You are surrounding all my surroundings,
Twisting the kaleidoscope behind both of my eyes.

Entertain my faith. 

Lean with it, rock with it,
When we gonna stop with it,
Lyrics that mean nothing, we were gifted with thought,
Is it time to move our feet to an introspective beat,
It ain't the speakers that bump hearts, it's our hearts that make the beat.

And I'll be holding on to you.
And I'll be holding on to you.
And I'll be holding on to you.
And I'll be holding on to you.
And I'll be holding on to you.
And I'll be holding on to you.
And I'll be holding on to you.
And I'll be holding on to you!

Fake you out

I want to drive awayIn the night, headlights call my name

I, I'll never be, be what you see inside
You say I'm not alone, but I am petrified
You say that you are close, is close the closest star?
You just feel twice as far, you just feel twice as far

And I'll fall
And I'll break
And I'll fake
All I wanna

And I'll fall down
And I'll break down
And I'll fake you out
All I wanna

I'm so afraid
Of what you have to say
Cause I am quiet now
And silence gives you space

I'll never be, be what you see inside
You say I'm not alone, but I am petrified
You say that you are close, is close the closest star?
You just feel twice as far, you just feel twice as far

And I'll fall
And I'll break
And I'll fake
All I wanna

And I'll fall down
And I'll break down
And I'll fake you out
All I wanna

It's the same game today as it always is
I don't give these places fake my name explaining this
And the wrists of my mind have the bleeding lines
That remind me of all the times...
I have committed
Dirty dirty crimes that are perfectly form-fitted
To what I've done and what I'm doing
I'm brewing and losing and spewing infusing
And believe me that's what all the kids are doing
What kids are doing are killing themselves
They feel they have no control of their prisoner's cell
And if you're one of them then you're one of me
And you would do almost anything just to feel free...
Am I right? Of course I am
Convince me otherwise would take all night
Before you walk away, there's one more thing I want to say
Our brains are sick but that's okay

And I'll fall
And I'll break
And I'll fake
All I wanna

All I wanna
Yeah, and I'll fall down
And I'll break down
And I'll fake you out
All I wanna
Yeah, and I'll fall down
And I'll break down
And I'll fake you out
All I wanna

I'm so afraid
Of what you have to say
Cause I am quiet now
And silence gives you space