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Aerials

Life is a waterfall,
We're one in the river,
And one again after the fall.

Swimming through the void
We hear the word,
We lose ourselves,
But we find it all?

Cause we are the ones that wanna play,
Always wanna go,
But you never wanna stay,

And we are the ones that wanna choose,
Always wanna play,
But you never wanna lose.

Aerials, in the sky,
When you lose small mind,
You free your life.

Life is a waterfall,
We drink from the river,
Then we turn around and put up our walls.

Swimming through the void
We hear the word,
We lose ourselves,
But we find it all?

Cause we are the ones that wanna play,
Always wanna go,
But you never wanna stay,

And we are the ones that wanna choose,
Always wanna play,
But you never wanna lose.

Aerials, in the sky,
When you lose small mind,
You free your life.
Aerials, so up high,
When you free your eyes,
Eternal prize.
Aerials, in the sky,
When you lose small mind,
You free your life.
Aerials, so up high,
When you free your eyes,
Eternal prize.

I am not as fine as I seem, pardon,
Me for yelling, I'm telling you green gardens,
Are not what's growing in my psyche, it's a different me,
A difficult beast feasting on burnt down trees,
Freeze frame please, let me paint a mental picture portrait,
Something you won't forget, it's all about my forehead,
And how it is a door that holds back contents,
That make Pandora's Box's contents look nonviolent,
Behind my eyelids are islands of violence,
My mind's shipwrecked, this is the only land my mind could,
Find, I did not know it was such a violent island,
Full of tidal waves, suicidal crazed lions,
They're trying to eat me, blood running down their chin,
And I know that I can fight or I can let the lion win,
I begin to assemble what weapons I can find,
'Cause sometimes to stay alive you got to kill your mind.

i kinda like it when i make you cry
'cause im twisted up
im twisted up
inside my mind

"Supongo que podría estar bastante cabreado con lo que me pasó, pero cuesta seguir enfadado cuando hay tanta belleza en el mundo. A veces siento como si la contemplase toda a la vez y me abruma. Mi corazón se hincha como un globo que está a punto de estallar... pero recuerdo que debo relajarme y no aferrarme demasiado a ella, y entonces fluye a través de mí como la lluvia y no siento otra cosa que gratitud por cada instante de mi estúpida e insignificante vida... No tienen ni idea de lo que les estoy hablando seguro, pero no se preocupen... algún día la tendrán." - American Beauty (1999)

Shut up

Shut the fuck up she said, I'm going fucking deaf
You're always too loud, everything's too loud
Now that all my friends left, this place is fucking dead
I wanna move out, when can we move out? This shit has got to stop

I'll run away

Get the fuck up, she said your life is meaningless
it's going nowhere, you're going nowhere
you're just a fuck-up, she said I'll live alone instead
she said you don't care, I know I don't care

I'll never ask permission from you,
fuck off I'm not listening to you
I'm not coming home, I'm never going to come back home

I got too fucked up again, and passed out on the plane
Tried to forget you, i can't forget you
No sleep on this flight, I'll think about the nights
we had to get through, how did we get through?

I'll never ask permission from you,
fuck off I'm not listening to you
I'm not coming home, I'm never going to come back home

I'll run away
I think it's time that I should leave
I think it's time that I should leave
I think it's time that I should leave
I think it's time that I should leave
I'll never ask permission from you,
fuck off i'm not listening to you
I'm not coming home, I'm never going to come back home

I'll run away
I think it's time for me to leave
I think it's time for me to leave
I think it's time for me to leave
I think it's time for me to leave

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mama we're all full of lies