My heart is my armor,
She's the tear in my heart, she's a carver,
She's a butcher with a smile, cut me farther,
Than I've ever been.

The carpal tunnel of love

We take sour sips from life's lush lips
And we shake, shake, shake the hips in relationships
Stomp out this disaster town
You'll put your eyes to the sun and say, "I know
you're only blinding to keep back what the clouds are hiding."

And we might've started singing just a little soon
We're throwing stones at a glass moon

Whoa oh, we're so miserable and stunning
Whoa oh, love songs for the genuinely cunning, whoa-oh

We keep the beat with your blistered feet
And we bullet the words at the mockingbirds singing
Slept through the weekend and dreaming
Of sinking with the melody of the cliffs of eternity
Got postcards from my former selves saying: "How've you been?"
We might've said goodbyes just a little soon
(Stomp out this disaster town)
Robbing lips, kissing banks under this moon

Whoa oh, we're so miserable and stunning
Whoa oh, love songs for the genuinely cunning
Whoa oh, we're so miserable and stunning
Whoa oh, love songs for the genuinely cunning, ohh...
It was ice cream headaches and sweet avalanche
When the pearls in our shells got up to dance
You call me a bad tipper of the cradle
Tired yawns for fawns on hunter's lawns
We're the has-beens of husbands
Sharpening the knives of young wives
Take two years and call me when you're better
Take teardrops of mine, find yourself wetter

Whoa oh, we're so miserable and stunning
Whoa oh, love songs for the genuinely cunning
Whoa oh, we're so miserable and stunning
Whoa oh, love songs for the genuinely cunning

with tears in my eyes i begged you to stay you said hey man i love you but no fucking way

Turn around your life or we'll change

Without your consent

Without your okay

It happened again

I woke up today 

And everything changed

All my friends and all my family 

Suddenly don't understand me 

Understand I'm not the man they think I am

For a minute there, I lost myself, I lost myself.

dirty dancefloors and dreams of naughtiness

I'm thinking we should ride
To a place that we don't know
To a place where no one's seen us before
I'm thinking, you and I
Better just go with the flow
Last thing that we should do is go slow

I Can't Decide

It's not easy having yourself a good time
Greasing up those bets and betters
Watching out they don't four-letter
Fuck and kiss you both at the same time
Smells-like something I've forgotten
Curled up died and now it's rotten
I'm not a gangster tonight
Don't want to be a bad guy
I'm just a loner baby
And now you're gotten in my way

I can't decide
Whether you should live or die
Oh, you'll probably go to heaven
Please don't hang your head and cry
No wonder why
My heart feels dead inside
It's cold and hard and petrified
Lock the doors and close the blinds
We're going for a ride

It's a bitch convincing people to like you
If I stop now call me a quitter
If lies were cats you'd be a litter
Pleasing everyone isn't like you
Dancing jigs until I'm crippled
Slug ten drinks I won't get pickled

I've got to hand it to you
You've played by all the same rules
It takes the truth to fool me
And now you've made me angry

I can't decide
Whether you should live or die
Oh, you'll probably go to heaven
Please don't hang your head and cry
No wonder why
My heart feels dead inside
It's cold and hard and petrified
Lock the doors and close the blinds
We're going for a ride

Oh I could throw you in the lake
Or feed you poisoned birthday cake
I wont deny I'm gonna miss you when you're gone
Oh I could bury you alive
But you might crawl out with a knife
And kill me when I'm sleeping
That's why

I can't decide
Whether you should live or die
Oh, you'll probably go to heaven
Please don't hang your head and cry
No wonder whyMy heart feels dead inside
It's cold and hard and petrified
Lock the doors and close the blinds
We're going for a ride

Heaven Knows I'm Miserable Now

I was happy in the haze of a drunken hour
But heaven knows I'm miserable now
I was looking for a job, and then I found a job
And heaven knows I'm miserable now

In my life
Why do I give valuable time
To people who don't care if I live or die

Two lovers entwined pass me by
And heaven knows I'm miserable now
I was looking for a job, and then I found a job
And heaven knows I'm miserable now

In my life
Why do I give valuable time
To people who don't care if I live or die

What she asked of me at the end of the day
Caligula would have blushed
"You've been in the house too long" she said
And I naturally fled

In my life
Why do I smile
At people who I'd much rather kick in the eye
I was happy in the haze of a drunken hour
But heaven knows I'm miserable now
"You've been in the house too long" she said
And I naturally fled

In my life
Why do I give valuable time
To people who don't care if I live or die

Find a nicer way to kill it

-THEY'RE GONNA EAT ME ALIVE-

Young lovers with their legs tied up in knots,
Young lovers with their legs tied up in (knots)
With his long tall gun pop went a creepin'
To blow their hay loft bedheads straight off

It's all the rage back home

    

I've lost, I've lost my innocence

I've found my self-belief

And in a cup of loneliness

I've found instant relief

Numb

One track mind like a gold fish
Stuck inside my Petri dish
I can't breathe and I can't smile
This better be worth my while

I feel numb most of the time
The lower I get the higher I'll climb
And I will wonder why
I got dark only to shine
Looking for the golden light
Oh, it's a reasonable sacrifice
Burn, burn, burn bright

Forgo family, forgo friends
It's how it started, how it ends
I can't open up and cry
'Cause I've been silent all my life

I feel numb most of the time
The lower I get the higher I'll climb
And I will wonder why
I got dark only to shine
Looking for the golden light
Oh it's a reasonable sacrifice
Burn, burn, burn bright
Burn, burn, burn bright

Oh, I get dark oh and I'm in hell
I need a friend, oh but I can't yell
Yeah, I'm no good, no good to anyone
'Cause all I care about is being number one

Shine, looking for the golden light
Oh it's a reasonable sacrifice

Shine, looking for the golden light
Oh it's a reasonable sacrifice (sacrifice)

I feel numb most of the time
The lower I get the higher I'll climb
And I will wonder why
I got dark only to shine

And I light up the sky
Stars that burn the brightest
Fall so fast and pass you by
Cough like empty lighters

I feel numb most of the time
The lower I get the higher I'll climb
And I will wonder why
I get dark only to shine

And I light up the sky
Stars that burn the brightest
Fall so fast and pass you by
Spark like empty lighters

Nobody likes you, everyone left you, they're all out without you, having fun.

Ode to sleep

I wake up fine and dandy but then by the time i find it handy,

To rip my heart apart and start planning my crash landing,

I go up, up, up, up, up to the ceiling,

Then I feel my soul start leaving, like an old man's hair receding,

I'm pleading please, oh please on my knees repeatedly asking,

Why it's got to be like this, is this living free,

I don't want to be the one, be the one who has the sun's blood on my hands,

I'll tell the moon, take this weapon forged in darkness,

Some see a pen, I see a harpoon.

I'll stay awake,

'Cause the dark's not taking prisoners tonight.

Why am I not scared in the morning,

I don't hear those voices calling,

I must have kicked them out, I must have kicked them out,

I swear I heard demons yelling,

Those crazy words they were spelling,

They told me I was gone, they told me I was g o n e.

But I'll tell them,

Why won't you let me go?

Do I threaten all your plans?

I'm insignificant.

Please tell them you have no plans for me.

I will set my soul on fire, what have I become?

I'll tell them.

On the eve of a day that's forgotten and fake,

And the trees they await and clouds anticipate,

The start of a day when we put on our face,

A mask that portrays that we don't need grace,

On the eve of a day that is bigger than us,

But we open our eyes 'cause we're told that we must,

And the trees wave their arms and the clouds try to plead,

Desperately yelling there's something we need,

I'm not free, I asked forgiveness three times,

Same amount that I denied, I three-time mvp'ed this crime,

I'm afraid to tell you who I adore, won't tell you who I'm singing towards,

Metaphorically I'm a whore, and that's denial number four.

I'll stay awake,

'Cause the dark's not taking prisoners tonight.

Why am I not scared in the morning,

I don't hear those voices calling,

I must have kicked them out, I must have kicked them out,

I swear I heard demons yelling,

Those crazy words they were spelling,

They told me I was gone, they told me I was g o n e.

But I'll tell them,

Why won't you let me go?

Do I threaten all your plans?

I'm insignificant,

Please tell them, you have no plans for me,

I will set my soul on fire, what have I become?

I'll tell them, you have no plans for me,

I will set my soul on fire,

What have I become?

I'll tell them,

I'll tell them,

I'll tell them,

I'll tell them,

Please tell them, you have no plans for me,

I will set my soul on fire, what have I become?

I'm sorry.

OH LONELY, LONELY, LONELY BOY

      “You’re too good for me, you’re too good for anyone.”

Submarine (2011) dir. Richard Ayoade

Don’t care if you think I’m dumb,
I don’t care at all.

What is going on

they took a little look at my brain // they come to find all is sane // they took a little look at my heart // they found a prince living behind bars

Gemini moons are restless and erratic. But this moon is quick to laughter and lively. Gemini moon natives are curious and moody. They are outspoken and spend many hours trying to analyze their emotions. Moon in Gemini feels with their head.

Chandelier

“We don’t read and write poetry because it’s cute. We read and write poetry because we are members of the human race. And the human race is filled with passion. And medicine, law, business, engineering, these are noble pursuits and necessary to sustain life.”

Dead Poets Society (1989) dir. Peter Weir

Well, I think I'm gonna burn in hell,
Everybody burn the house right down.

Everybody's fucked and they don't even know.

And do me a favour, and ask if you need some help
She said, do me a favour and stop flattering yourself
How to tear apart the ties that bind
Perhaps fuck off, might be too kind
Perhaps fuck off, might be too kind

Do you remember me?

I killed your family

And now I’m going to kill you too

I made your brother bleed

I made your father scream

And I made your mother say those things she said to me

She said “do with me what you want but please don’t hurt my family

Take my pride, take my life, take my body but don’t take the ones that are close to me

Take my pride, take my life, take my body but don’t take the ones that I love”

And I continued without mercy

So I looked into your eyes and I saw the reflection

Of a coward you and I both hate very much

And then I grabbed the knife

And I let the blood out of your throat

And I smashed those tiny mirrors inside of your skull

And I got to thinking that

If I don’t go to hell when I die I might go to heaven

If I don’t go to hell when I die I might go to heaven

If I don’t go to hell when I die I might go to heaven

If I don’t go to hell when I die I might go to heaven

Might go to heaven

But probably not

         You're on my mind                                                 

And the things that you say hurt me most of the time

But I'm on your side,

Cause I know I'm not easy to deal with sometimes

But I'm sinking fast so it's alright

NO FUTURE FOR ME

 it's not easy having yourself a good time || no wonder why my heart feels dead inside / it's cold and hard and petrified || it's not easy convincing people to like you

Aerials

Life is a waterfall,
We're one in the river,
And one again after the fall.

Swimming through the void
We hear the word,
We lose ourselves,
But we find it all?

Cause we are the ones that wanna play,
Always wanna go,
But you never wanna stay,

And we are the ones that wanna choose,
Always wanna play,
But you never wanna lose.

Aerials, in the sky,
When you lose small mind,
You free your life.

Life is a waterfall,
We drink from the river,
Then we turn around and put up our walls.

Swimming through the void
We hear the word,
We lose ourselves,
But we find it all?

Cause we are the ones that wanna play,
Always wanna go,
But you never wanna stay,

And we are the ones that wanna choose,
Always wanna play,
But you never wanna lose.

Aerials, in the sky,
When you lose small mind,
You free your life.
Aerials, so up high,
When you free your eyes,
Eternal prize.
Aerials, in the sky,
When you lose small mind,
You free your life.
Aerials, so up high,
When you free your eyes,
Eternal prize.

I am not as fine as I seem, pardon,
Me for yelling, I'm telling you green gardens,
Are not what's growing in my psyche, it's a different me,
A difficult beast feasting on burnt down trees,
Freeze frame please, let me paint a mental picture portrait,
Something you won't forget, it's all about my forehead,
And how it is a door that holds back contents,
That make Pandora's Box's contents look nonviolent,
Behind my eyelids are islands of violence,
My mind's shipwrecked, this is the only land my mind could,
Find, I did not know it was such a violent island,
Full of tidal waves, suicidal crazed lions,
They're trying to eat me, blood running down their chin,
And I know that I can fight or I can let the lion win,
I begin to assemble what weapons I can find,
'Cause sometimes to stay alive you got to kill your mind.

i kinda like it when i make you cry
'cause im twisted up
im twisted up
inside my mind

"Supongo que podría estar bastante cabreado con lo que me pasó, pero cuesta seguir enfadado cuando hay tanta belleza en el mundo. A veces siento como si la contemplase toda a la vez y me abruma. Mi corazón se hincha como un globo que está a punto de estallar... pero recuerdo que debo relajarme y no aferrarme demasiado a ella, y entonces fluye a través de mí como la lluvia y no siento otra cosa que gratitud por cada instante de mi estúpida e insignificante vida... No tienen ni idea de lo que les estoy hablando seguro, pero no se preocupen... algún día la tendrán." - American Beauty (1999)

Shut up

Shut the fuck up she said, I'm going fucking deaf
You're always too loud, everything's too loud
Now that all my friends left, this place is fucking dead
I wanna move out, when can we move out? This shit has got to stop

I'll run away

Get the fuck up, she said your life is meaningless
it's going nowhere, you're going nowhere
you're just a fuck-up, she said I'll live alone instead
she said you don't care, I know I don't care

I'll never ask permission from you,
fuck off I'm not listening to you
I'm not coming home, I'm never going to come back home

I got too fucked up again, and passed out on the plane
Tried to forget you, i can't forget you
No sleep on this flight, I'll think about the nights
we had to get through, how did we get through?

I'll never ask permission from you,
fuck off I'm not listening to you
I'm not coming home, I'm never going to come back home

I'll run away
I think it's time that I should leave
I think it's time that I should leave
I think it's time that I should leave
I think it's time that I should leave
I'll never ask permission from you,
fuck off i'm not listening to you
I'm not coming home, I'm never going to come back home

I'll run away
I think it's time for me to leave
I think it's time for me to leave
I think it's time for me to leave
I think it's time for me to leave

Pop Pop Bang Bang

mama we're all full of lies

“There is only the forest and there is only surrender.”

 Oh yeah I'm an ugly m e s s

Not in the face, but in the head

I'm thinking that was best not said

But I say it anyway, then I say it again

Golden Haze

wild heart surrender to me
what does it take to be like you?
golden haze hold out for days

wild heart surrender to me
what does it take to be like you?
golden haze hold out for days
haven't seen you haven't seen anyone

beautiful one
i wanna know what you are
beautiful one
i wanna know what you are

Deep inside where nothings fine

I've lost my mind

You're not invited, so step aside

I've lost my

Get Out The Way

orange takano ichigo

something happened in my imagination // the situations becoming dire // my treehouse is on fire // and for some reason i smell gas on my hands // this is not what i had planned, THIS IS NOT WHAT I HAD PLANNED.

Winter

I know if I'll make it through this winter without you by my side
I waited for you so long while I traveled far and wide
Convinced myself there's no one better, so how could I deny
Your love, it's like a thorn into my side

My friends they understand me better but don't whisper goodnight
I want a lover and a sister, but we know that's not right
You used to listen to my music, I always wondered why
I wish I could pretend you make me try

I want the days to come, I want these sleepless nights to end
I lie here thinking how I lost you to all your stupid friends
You made me feel so foolish for the twenty-second time
Your love might be the last time that I try

Don't know if I'll make it through this winter without you on my own
I waited here for you forever, I can't believe you'd go
I may not have the answers, but I'd rather never know
Your love was such a heavy, heavy blow

Goodnight my love, you seemed so nice 'til I knew you better
Now I can tell you're always thinking twice about what might be better
On the outside, there's no conscience, you're a victim of your cautiousness
You don't try, you just lie there hoping that someone will come to make it right