i feel empty every time i think about you

- Es simple Jo... - miró las nubes que comenzaban a cubrir el oscuro cielo - no puedes obligar a alguien para que te ame... esas cosas nunca funcionan, además suena un poco tonto y desesperado, ¿no? - sus ojos castaños ahora de un color mas apagado se posaron sobre los míos.- Solo tienes que esperar a la persona indicada, aunque suene muy cliché, lo siento. -

“Yo a usted deseo hacerle una sonrisa, el amor ya se hará solo.”

—	Locuras de una mente delirante

“I want to be
craved
by you.
I want you
to think about kissing
me
as much as I
think about
kissing
you.”

—

Alena M.

Cause relationships are overrated,

Maybe i’m just tired and jaded,

But i’m sorry i just like myself,

More than i like you,


So call me anti-social,

Call it masturbation,

Either way it’s a solo operation,

I’m just far more comfortable alone…

Make a wish on our sorry little hearts
Have a smoke, pour a drink, steal a kiss in the dark
Fingernails on my skin like the teeth of a shark
I'm intoxicated by the lie

In the chill of your stare I am painfully lost
Like a deer in the lights of an oncoming bus
For the thrill of your touch I will shamefully lust
As you tell me we're nothing but trouble

West Coast

There are nights I struggle to shake off my demons. There are nights I laugh until I cry. There are nights I cry until I laugh. These demons might never leave. I really don't know. But there is one thing that's for sure...time never stops. And time heals.

Sink

I don't want to let you go.
But it hurts my hands to hold the rope.
I won't be such an easy mark.
You're no better then they say.

And all the candles on the cake.
All set fire to the gate.
Turn the cannons towards the boat.
Men were drowning in the moat.
It was the end of all rowers oars.

If you call then I'm coming to get you.
If you call then I'm coming, now.
If you call then I'm coming to get you.
You want to sink, so I'm gonna let you.

All I want's some earth and seed.
But only grow the things I need.
But first I must find my way back.
And you go lay down on the track.

At first I had an even keel.
But now I'm not sure what is real.
It's taken me this long to learn.
That every dead is ate by worms.
And once they're gone they don't return.

If you call then I'm coming to get you.
If you call then I'm coming, now.
If you call then I'm coming to get you.
You want to sink, so I'm gonna let you.

I'm coming to get you.
If you call then I'm coming to get you.
If you call then I'm coming to get you.
You want to sink, so I'm gonna let you.
Then the fire snuck into your bedroom.
Now I'm falling asleep to forget you.

How darkly the dark hand met his end.
He was withered and boney, exposed for a phoney.
But we heed the last words that he penned.
Haste to disgrace the traitor. Do not wait til later.
I don't think that you've got to pretend.
I see God in birds and Satan in long words.
But I know what you need in a friend.
So now when I leave you, I hope I won't see you.

How darkly the dark hand met his end.
He was withered and boney, exposed for a phoney.
But we heed the last words that he penned.
Haste to disgrace the traitor. Do not wait til later.

If you call then I'm coming to get you.
If you call then I'm coming, now.
If you call then I'm coming to get you.
You want to sink, so I'm gonna let you.
Well, I'm coming to get you.
If you call then I'm coming, now.
If you call then I'm coming to get you.
You want to sink, so I'm gonna let you.
Then the fire snuck into your bedroom.
Now I'm falling asleep to forget you.

La culpa sigue, mis deseos de abrazarte se hacen mas fuertes cada día, pero por supuesto que no puedo hacer nada al respecto.

i'd probably still adore you with your hands around my neck

I'm like an old book that was left on the shelf. Everyone underlined what they wanted to read and forgot the rest. My spine was left worn out and bent. So just take what you want from me and forget the rest.

Nunca pensé que esto iba a durar por tanto tiempo, pero tampoco pensé que duraría tan poco, como siempre te dije, para mí, nada dura para siempre. No creí que lo que teníamos, (fuera o no real) terminaría tan pronto, y no solo eso, no creí que acabaría de esta forma, tan hiriente para los dos. Después de pedirte perdón, tuve la mera ilusión de que quizás las cosas mejorarían, y volveríamos a tener una amistad, extraña, pero aún así, amistad. Pero nada fue así, me ignoraste, y me sentí, en conclusión, para la mierda. Mis esperanzas se fueron debilitando poco a poco, así como mi motivación por querer hacerte entrar en razón.

Lo que aún no entiendo, es por qué yo si te perdoné la primera vez que me lastimaste, y ahora tú, no lo hiciste. Quizás nunca debería tener segundas oportunidades, es lo que me enseñaste hoy. Quiero defenderme y decir que dentro de todo yo te dije la verdad, sin rodeos, para dejar de ilusionarte, si es lo que te ocurría, y supongo que sí. Dentro de todo mi sinceridad te agobió y sé que te sentiste triste, acepto que te estuve un poco mal, pero no había que exagerar tanto las cosas. Pienso que deberíamos seguir hablando, siendo amigos aunque cueste, pero no, decidiste ir por el otro camino, el de ignorarme, olvidarme, dejar de ser alguien para ti, y eso es lo que mas me lastima. Tampoco quiero que pienses que me estoy victimizando, no, todo lo contrario, solo quiero dejar salir todo lo que estuve pensando durante estos días, no te estoy culpando, solo... digo lo que pienso.

Me siento culpable por no haberte hecho feliz, por no haber hecho lo que las otras no pudieron, me siento un desperdicio mas, que no mereció tenerte ni tan solo un poco.
Aún así, quiero decirte que nunca te olvidaré, me hiere que me ignores pero no me puedo quedar estancada en esto, no puedo hacerte cambiar de opinión, y tengo que asumir las cosas y seguir adelante. Quizás deba decirte adiós, aunque no vas a percatarte ni un poco de lo escrito. Es mas, me siento patética por dejar salir mis sentimientos, pero en fin.

The last time you came through
Oh darling, I know what you're going through
The last time you came through
Oh darling, oh darling, oh darling

If I Ever Need Attention, All I Have to do is Die - Brand New

VCR

You, you still have all the answers

and you, you still have them too

and we, we live half in the day time

and we, we live half at night

Watch things on VCRs, with me and talk about big love

I think we're superstars, you say you think we are the best thing

But you, you just know, you just do

When i find myself by the sea, in anothers company by the sea

When I go out the pier, gonna die and have no fear

Because you, you just know, you just do

Watch things on VCRs, with me and talk about big love

I think we're superstars, you say you think we are the best thing

But you, you just know, you just do

Old yellow bricks, love's a risk

“Intimacy is not who you let touch you. Intimacy is who you text at 3am about your dreams and fears. Intimacy is giving someone your attention, when ten other people are asking for it. Intimacy is the person always in the back of your mind, no matter how distracted you are.”