“They just sat back laughing at the wounded city. Each breath sucking in ashes and fumes. Oh it bled all right; drier than Moore county. All expatriate flames hurrying to found new nations of blinding dust. But the two of them, they just squinted at that pipe-cleaner skyline, and it burned hotter in their oil slick pupils. One elbowed the other and said ‘I’ve seen better.’ Knowing that they were paid to remember the past - he blew out a hot breath and said ‘burn it all’.”

Summertime Sadness

Kiss me hard before you go 
Summertime sadness 
I just wanted you to know 
That baby you're the best 
Got my red dress on tonight 
Drop it like it's hot in the pale moonlight 
Got my hair up real big beauty queen style 
Highheels off, I'm feeling alive 

Oh, my God, I feel it in the air 
Telephone wires above are sizzlin' like your stare 
Honey I'm on fire I feel it everywhere 
Nothing scares me anymore 

Kiss me hard before you go 
Summertime sadness 
I just wanted you to know 
That baby you're the best 

I've got that summertime, summertime sadness 
Got that summertime, summertime sadness 
Got that summertime, summertime sadness 
Oh, oh 

I'm feelin' electric tonight 
Cruising down the coast goin' 'bout 99 
Got my bad baby by my heavenly side 
Oh if I go, I'll die happy tonight 

Oh, my God, I feel it in the air 
Telephone wires above are sizzlin' like your stare 
Honey, I'm on fire I feel it everywhere 
Nothing scares me anymore 

Kiss me hard before you go 
Summertime sadness 
I just wanted you to know 
That baby you're the best 

I've got that summertime, summertime sadness 
S-s-summertime, summertime sadness 
Got that summertime, summertime sadness 
Oh, oh 

I think I'll miss you forever 
Like the stars miss the sun in the morning skies 
Late is better than never 
Even if I'm gone I'm gonna drive, drive 

I've got that summertime, summertime sadness 
S-s-summertime, summertime sadness 
Got that summertime, summertime sadness 
Oh, oh 

Kiss me hard before you go 
Summer time sadness 
I just wanted you to know 
That baby you're the best 

I've got that summertime, summertime sadness 
S-s-summertime, summertime sadness 
Got that summertime, summertime sadness 
Oh, oh

“There’s a tremendous difference between alone and lonely. You could be lonely in a group of people. I like being alone. I like eating by myself. I go home at night and just watch a movie or hang out with my dog. I have to exert myself and really say, oh God, I’ve got to see my friends ‘cause I’m too content being by myself.” -Drew Barrymore

Far From Never.

I know I fucked up this time
Just give me one more try
I know you've made up your mind
So leave me here behind you

And all the things you said
Made it harder to breathe
When I was lying on the floor
I couldn't believe you wouldn't save me
But you blame me

You cried, the fire just died
It's gone forever
And the chance to live our lives
It's gone forever
And where we stand tonight
It's where we stand tonight
So far from never

I know I messed with your mind
And wasted all your precious time
The more I try, the more I find that

All the things you've said
Made it harder to breathe
When I was lying on the floor
I couldn't believe you wouldn't save me
But you blame me

You cried, the fire just died
It's gone forever
And the chance to live our lives
It's gone forever
And where we stand tonight
It's where we stand tonight
So far from never

No one will never let you down
No one will never let you down
No one will never let you down
No one will never let you down

'Cause the fire just died
It's gone forever
And the chance to live our lives
It's gone forever
And where we stand tonight
It's where we stand tonight
So far from never
So far from never

You said you'd never let me down
You said you'd never let me down

I don’t blame you for being you, but you can’t blame me for hating it.

I hope one day
somebody loves you
so much

that they see violets
in the bags under your eyes,
sunsets in the downward arch
of your lips

that they recognize you
as something green,
something fresh and still growing
even if sometimes
you are growing sideways

that they do not waste their time
trying to fix you.

Heart In A Cage

Well I don't feel better
When I'm fucking around
And I don't write better
When I'm stuck in the ground
So don't teach me a lesson
Cause I've already learned
Yeah the sun will be shining
And my children will burn

Oh the heart beats in its cage

I don't want what you want
I don't feel what you feel
See I'm stuck in a city
But I belong in a field

Yeah we got left, left, left, left, left, left, left

Now it's three in the morning and you're eating alone

Oh the heart beats in its cage

All our friends, they're laughing at us
All of those you loved you mistrust
Help me I'm just not quite myself
Look around there's no one else left
I went to the concert and I fought through the crowd
Guess I got too excited when I thought you were around

Oh he gets left, left, left, left, left, left, left
 I'm sorry you were thinking; I would steal your fire.
The heart beats in its cage
Yes the heart beats in its cage
Alright

And the heart beats in its cage

Attention Reader.

I'm nothing, I'm nothing

Got here, and now I'm gone
So many days fly by
You haunt me the times I shut my eyes
Choke softly from the poetry
It doesn't sound as true
When you still wear her scent

I never thought you would've 
thrown something back,
ripping apart my heart.
(I see you only at night)

Won't look back,
Wretched night.

I pray for peace of mind
I beg for a brand new life
I plead for a second chance 
And the ability to shut my eyes at night

I pray for peace of mind
I beg for a brand new life
I plead for a second chance 
And the ability to shut my eyes at night

Angels die and memories fade
I'll live to see, the day that you break

I never thought you would've 
thrown something back,
ripping apart my heart.
I see you only at night.

My heart fades
My heart fades

A true friend stabs you in the front
A true friend stabs you in the front
A true friend stabs you in the front
A true friend stabs you in the fuck of

I pray for peace of mind
I beg for a brand new life
I pray for a second chance
And the strength
To burn this mother fucker down

I pray for peace of mind. 
I beg for a brand new life. 
I plead for a second chance. 
And the ability to shut my eyes at night. 

Save Rock and Roll.

I need more dreams 
And less life 
And I need that dark 
In a little more light 
I cried tears you'll never see 
So fuck you, you can go cry me an ocean 
And leave me be 

You are what you love 
Not who loves you 
In a world full of the word yes 
I'm here to scream 

No, no 
Wherever I go, go 
Trouble seems to follow 
Only plugged in to save rock and roll 
Rock and roll, no 
Wherever I go, go 
Trouble seems to follow 
Only plugged in to save rock and roll 

Blood brothers in desperation 
An oath of silence 
For the voice of our generation 
How'd it get to be only me? 
Like I'm the last damn kid still kicking 
That still believes 

I will defend the faith 
Going down swinging 
I will save the songs 
That we can't stop singing 

No, no 
Wherever I go, go 
Trouble seems to follow 
Only plugged in to save rock and roll 
Rock and roll, no 
Wherever I go, go 
Trouble seems to follow 
Only plugged in to save rock and roll 

Oh no, we won't go 
We don't know when to quit, oh oh 

You are what you love 
Not who loves you 
In a world full of the word 'yes' 
I'm here to scream 

No, no 
Wherever I go, go 
Trouble seems to follow 
Only plugged in to save rock and roll 
Rock and roll, no 
Wherever I go, go 
Trouble seems to follow 
Only plugged in to save rock and roll 

Oh no, we won't go 
We don't know when to quit, oh oh 

Should I sink or swim? 
Or simply disappear? 

"La solución del misterio siempre es inferior al misterio" - Jorge Luis Borges

"Slowly, floor, chest stuttering, and stumbled back to the bed, dropping down onto it. He didn't even bother to properly pull the blankets or undress. He laid his body on Dean’s pillow and faced the wall that Dean had spent most of his days staring at, eyes roaming for answers.

There were no answers there. It was only a wall; blank and unforgiving.

He closed his eyes, the anger making him cry.

He didn't want to cry anymore, because crying wasn't going to bring Dean back. But the bed felt so empty without him, and the apartment was so quiet without his screams, without the constant reminder that Dean was right there. He laughed bitterly, shaking his head, because it was pathetic, thinking that he would much rather have Dean beside him, thrashing in his sleep, than to be in bed alone.

But it was true, because at least Dean would be with him."

"“Wake up,” he whispered. “Wake up. This is a nightmare."

And i'm not happy. And i'm not sad. 

I'm so happy because today 
I've found my friends...
They're in my head
I'm so ugly, but that's okay, cause so are you...

"I want to spend the rest of my life with you."

“Everything with you is a new experience,”

“Married people don’t leave each other,” He whispered, his own eyes drifting shut and then opening again. He didn’t want to fall asleep just yet.

“That’s true,” The other said, his voice heavy. “They aren’t supposed to.”

“I won’t go.”

Everybody tells me I’m wrong, to want you so badly…

Late Nights

Era el quinto día que decidía emborracharme hasta quedar dormida y fumar, probablemente, hasta cinco cajas de cigarrillos en el día. Esto no me estaba haciendo bien, pero que importaba. Ya nada lo hacía.

No me sentía mal, simplemente no quería hacer nada mas que tomar alcohol y consumir nicotina. No sentía nada, si es que eso era posible. Llegué a pensar que me había quedado sin sentimientos y emociones pero, valla, que idea mas estúpida. Había llegado a unos de esos días, o semanas, o meses, los cuales quería estar sola.

No hablaba con nadie, pues no tenía demasiados amigos, solo los suficientes, unos dos, o quizás tres. Mi compañía era mi apartamento, la Luna, las estrellas, y el Sol. Los únicos que me escuchaban eran esos astros a miles de kilómetros de distancia. Esa era la única excusa que tenía para decir que "no hablaba sola."

Estaba recostada en el sillón mirando los edificios apenas iluminados por el sol, estaba anocheciendo. Debo decir que no tenía la mejor vista pero tampoco la peor, en fin, era un tanto agradable. Terminé mi último cigarro, y me refiero, al último de todos, no tenía mas cajas restantes. Me molesté y lo arrojé en el cenicero.

Me levanté un poco mareada para ver si me sobraban mas botellas de alcohol, nada. Definitivamente era mi día de suerte. Tenía hambre pero lo único que encontré fue un paquete de galletitas de "ve a saber tú de qué tiempo".

Después de mi no tan grandiosa cena, fui a tomarme una ducha rápida. Cuando entré al baño y miré mi reflejo en el espejo me tuve tanta lástima que juré no beber tanto durante los próximos días. Tenía ojeras muy notorias y mi cabello estaba tan opaco que parecía sin vida. Tenía el aspecto perfecto de una muerta, y así lo sentía también en mi interior.

Oh well, oh well. I still hope for the best. 
Say goodbye and send me off with a kiss farewell. 

I need to find a place to hide
You never know what could be
Waiting outside
The accidents that you could find
It's like some kind of suicide

“Everyone else in this goddamn world gets to live with the person they love, I don’t know why we can’t,” Dean said harshly, and Cas rolled his eyes.

"I just wanna stay here, with you, forever.”

"But I can't help falling in love with you," he sang softly, almost a whisper..."

"I just - I like songs about love," he breathed a laugh, like it was the dumbest answer he could give. But really, songs about love were his favorite because they had just so much meaning behind them, and that's just the only way that he knew how to explain."

“I saw you, and I knew I would never really say goodnight to you,” he finished on a murmur. “Not really. It just didn’t seem right to say goodbye to you, or goodnight…”

"He wanted to see him again, and he had promised him Friday, which was growing closer every second. Tomorrow. Cas made some embarrassing sound, pulling the blanket over his head.

He was an idiot."

 “Tell me everything; tell me everything about you.”

“We. We together. One being. 
Flow together like water.
Till I can't tell you from me. I drink you. Now. Now”

- The Thin Red Line 

There will always be nice people with good intentions.

Feeling paranoid
True enemy or false friend?
Anxiety's attacking me, and
My air is getting thin
I'm in trouble for the things
I haven't got to yet
I'm chomping at the bit and my
Palms are getting wet, sweating bullets

i'm still painting flowers for you.

“I want to be alone…with someone else who wants to be alone.”

—	Dimitri Zaik

it means that some people think they are that worthless that they will settle for abusive love. they attract the people that treat them how they think they deserve to be treated. others may have their sense of self-worth so won’t settle for anything below what they deserve. how you view yourself is how you’re going to be treated is what it’s saying. so, if you think you deserve more for yourself, that’s what you’re going to get, but if you don’t think you’re a good person, you will settle for much less than you really do deserve. don’t depreciate yourself, because one day you’re going to find someone who will give you everything you deserve and more.

I'm hopelessly hopeful, that you're just hopeless enough
But we never had it at all

Put a gun in my head and paint the walls with my brain

"Oh señor, no tendría chances con esa damisela tan preciosa, tan... deseada por algunos pocos. Nunca se fijaría en mi, tan solo una persona invisible e inútil. Apuesto que de seguro esa mirada triste quizás, solo quizás alguna vez se ha percatado de mi persona. Esos ojos asustados que siempre se hallan perdidos en puntos en el espacio, oh, nunca serían dignos de mi atención."

Do I Wanna Know?

Have you got colour in your cheeks? 
Do you ever get that fear that you can’t shift the tide that sticks around like summat’s in your teeth? 
Hide some aces up your sleeve 
Have you no idea that you’re in deep? 
I dreamt about you nearly every night this week 
How many secrets can you keep? 
Cause there’s this tune I’ve found that makes me think of you somehow 
And I play it on repeat until I fall asleep 
Spilling drinks on my settee 

(Do I wanna know?) 
If this feeling flows both ways 
(It’s hard to see you go) 
I’m sorta hoping that you’d stay 
(Baby we both know) 
That the nights were mainly made for saying things that you can’t say tomorrow day 

Crawling back to you 
Ever thought of calling when you’ve had a few? 
Cause I always do 
Well baby I’m too busy being yours to fall for somebody new 
Now I’ve thought it through 
Crawling back to you 

So have you got the guts? 
Been wondering if your heart’s still open, and if so I wanna know what time it shuts 
Simmer down and pucker up 
I’m sorry to interrupt 
It’s just I’m constantly on the cusp of trying to kiss you 
But I dunno if you feel the same as I do 
We could be together if you wanted to 

(Do I wanna know?) 
If this feeling flows both ways 
(It’s hard to see you go) 
I’m sorta hoping that you’d stay 
(Baby we both know) 
That the nights were mainly made for saying things that you can’t say tomorrow day 

Crawling back to you 
Ever thought of calling when 
(You’ve had a few) 
Darling when you’ve had a few 
(Cause I always do) 
Cause I always do 
(Well baby I’m too) 
Way too busy being yours to fall for somebody new 
Now I’ve thought it through 
Crawling back to you 

(Do I wanna know?) 
If this feeling flows both ways 
(It’s hard to see you go) 
I’m sorta hoping that you’d stay 
(Baby we both know) 
That the nights were mainly made for saying things that you can’t say tomorrow day 

(Do I wanna know?) 
Too busy being yours to fall 
(Hard to see you go) 
Ever thought of calling darling? 
(Do I wanna know?) 
Do you want me crawling back to you?