“What a miracle it is that out of these small, flat, rigid squares of paper unfolds world after world after world, worlds that sing to you, comfort and quiet or excite you. Books help us understand who we are and how we are to behave. They show us what community and friendship mean; they show us how to live and die.” — Anne Lamott

“I always find myself caught between saying too much and not saying enough”

Brunancio

fucking boring

It started out with a kiss how did it end up like this, it was only a kiss, it was only a kiss.

You can anchor down your feet and say fuck the past and everyone that dragged you here. - Anchor Down. Real Friends.

“Stop hating yourself for everything you’re not; start loving yourself for everything you are.”

—

Unknown

You don't know a thing about my sins, how the m i s e r y begins.

She's so close when I'm so far away 
When I'm so far away 
Let me dream, let me stay 
She's so close when I'm so far away 
When I'm so far away 
I can't sleep, I can't dream, I can't change.

“Stop being tormented by everyone else’s reaction to you.”

—	Joyce Meyer

I think of running away,
I can’t keep running away.

Can’t keep feeling the same,
I can’t keep taking the blame.

I wanna run with you,
I don’t care what we do.

Gotta get out of this place,
Because it feels like yesterday.

So don't you fuck me around. Because I'll shoot you down.

R U Mine?

I'm like a puppet on a string 
Tracy Island, time-traveling diamond 
Coulda shaped heartaches 
Come to find ya fall in some velvet morning 
Years too late 
She’s a silver lining lone ranger riding 
Through an open space 
In my mind when she’s not right there beside me 

I go crazy cause here isn’t where I wanna be 
And satisfaction feels like a distant memory 
And I can’t help myself, 
All I wanna hear her say is “Are you mine?” 

Are you mine? 
Are you mine? 
Are you mine? 

I guess what I’m trying to say is I need the deep end 
Keep imagining meeting, wished away entire lifetimes 
Unfair we’re not somewhere misbehaving for days 
Great escape lost track of time and space 
She’s a silver lining climbing on my desire 

And I go crazy cause here isn’t where I wanna be 
And satisfaction feels like a distant memory 
And I can’t help myself, 
All I wanna hear her say is “Are you mine?” 

Are you mine? 
Are you mine? 
Are you mine? 

And the thrill of the chase moves in mysterious ways 
So in case I’m mistaken, 
I just wanna hear you say you got me baby 
Are you mine? 

She’s a silver lining lone ranger riding through an open space 
In my mind when she’s not right there beside me 
And I go crazy cause here isn’t where I wanna be 

And satisfaction feels like a distant memory 
And I can’t help myself, 
All I wanna hear her say is “Are you mine?” 

Well are you mine? 
Are you mine? 
Are you mine?

Baby seasons change but people don't.

These words are knives
and often leave scars
the fear of falling apart.

And I think I'll blow my brains against the ceiling
And as the fragments of my skull begin to fall, 
fall on your tongue like pixie dust, 
just think happy thoughts and we’ll fly home. 

I've got troubled thoughts and the self-esteem to match, what a catch.

 ♌ Leo:Frustration, hostility, catastrophizing (imagining and living worst case scenarios) martyrdom, impulsivity, binge eating/drinking, they tend to go out of their way to help and do things for other people/keep busy in service, back pain, somatic troubles.

the moment you realize
that your bones are made of the same dust
as the planets, 
your lungs are breathing the same air
as the migrating butterflies,
and your blood is pumping because
of the love and care of thousands;

is when you realize
that you are not as broken
as you think you are. 
you are full
of the world. 

And the scars remind us that the past is real.

These things inside my head, they never make much sense. - Joyriding. Frank Iero

Keep your feet on the ground, when your head's on the clouds. 

“Nunca esperes nada de nadie, observa en silencio.”

—	Jonas Sanche.

It Never Ends.

Started off as a one night stand. Lingered to a fling.
The sirens and the surgeons didn't seem to mean a thing.
Hide your fangs all you want, you still need the blood. 
Tell us that it's different now, you're up to no good. 

Take my hand, show me the way, we are the children that fell from grace.
Take my hand, show me the way, we are the children who can't be saved.

One more nail in the coffin.
One more foot in the grave.
One more time I'm on my knees, as I try to walk away.
How has it come to this? 

I've said it once. I've said it twice.
I've said it a thousand fucking times.
That I'm okay, that I'm fine.
That it's all just in my mind.
But this has got the best of me.
And I can't seem to sleep.
It's not because you're not with me. It's because you never leave.

You say this is suicide? 
I say this is a war.
And I'm losing the battle.
Man down.

Oh! 

Is this what you call love?
(This is a war I can't win).

One more nail in the coffin.
One more foot in the grave.
One more time I'm on my knees, as I try to walk away.
Everything I loved, became everything I lost.

I've said it once. I've said it twice.
I've said it a thousand fucking times.
That I'm okay, that I'm fine.
That it's all just in my mind.
But this has got the best of me.
And I can't seem to sleep.
It's not because you're not with me. It's because you never leave.

Every second. Every minute. Every hour. Every day. 
It never ends. It never ends.